2014년 새해 결심

매년 새해가 되면 습관적으로 한해동안 이루고 싶은 것들을 몇가지 꼽아 보면서

그것들을 꼭 이루고 말겠다고 자신에게 굳게 다짐을 해왔다.

그렇지만 늘 처음에 맘 먹은 것과는 달리, 한 두달 이상 밀고 나가지 못하고,

지지부지하게 한 해를  마감해 와서 자신과의 약속을 지키지 못한 자책감과 자괴감이 싫어서

몇해 전부터는 아예 새해 게획(New Year's resolutions)을 세우지도 않기도 했다.

올해 새해 아침에는 비록 작심삼일로 끝날 것이 뻔해도,

아예 세운 계획이 없어서 시도조차 하지 못하는 것 보다는

중도에 포기할 각오를 미리하고, 올 한해에 해 보고 싶은 것들을 몇가지 정해 보았다.

 

 

       

첫번째 계획은

근래에 시력이 많이 떨어져서, 책읽기가 예전같지 않았는데,

올해는 한달에 최소 책 3권 읽기로 정하고,

우선 크리스마스 선물로 받은 퓰리처 상 수상작가인 윌슨씨가 쓴 "The Social Conquest of Earth" 와

개인적으로 제일 존경하는 작곡가 바하의 생애와 작품을 600 페이지에 걸쳐서 자세히 다룬

지휘자 존 엘리어트 가디너가 쓴 "천상의 음악" 책부터 읽기로 했다.

 

 

     

 

두번째 계획은 매일 해야 할 집안일과 직장일 뒷전으로 밀리기 일쑤인

피아노와 클라리넷 악기 연습을 다시 정기적으로 시작하기로 마음을 정하고,

바로 실행에 옮기고자 설날 저녁에 도전해 보고 싶은 피아노 레파토리로 바하의 피아노 파르티타,

그리고 클라리넷 곡으로 브라암스의 클라리넷 소나타로 결정을 내렸다.

 

세번째 계획은 그동안 잘 돌보지 못한 몸뚱아리와 정신의 건강을 위해서

priority를 상위권에 두고, 시간과 노력을 넉넉하게 투자해서

여행을 포함해서 좋아하는 여러가지 일들을 할 수 있는 기반을 다져야겠다고

매일 아침을 들면서 자신에게 최면을 걸듯이 반복해서 다짐을 해 본다.

 

 

 

 

연초에 영국의 한 신문사에서 일생에 한번은 읽어야 할 소설 100선을 쭉 따라 내려 가 보니

이미 읽어 본 책이 80여권이 되어서 내심 안도감이 들기는 한다.

하지만 대부분의 책들이 이미 오래 전에 읽어서 책의 내용들이 가물가물해서

아래 리스트를 참고삼아서 새로운 시각과 마음으로 다시 읽어 보는 것도 과히 나쁘지 않을 것 같다.

 

100 The Lord of the Rings by JRR Tolkein

WH Auden thought this tale of fantastic creatures looking for lost jewellery was a “masterpiece”.

 

99 To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee

A child's-eye view of racial prejudice and freaky neighbours in Thirties Alabama.

 

98 The Home and the World by Rabindranath Tagore

A rich Bengali noble lives happily until a radical revolutionary appears.

 

97 The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams

Earth is demolished to make way for a Hyperspatial Express Route. Don’t panic.

 

96 One Thousand and one Nights Anon

A Persian king's new bride tells tales to stall post-coital execution.

 

95 The Sorrows of Young Werther by Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Werther loves Charlotte, but she's already engaged. Woe is he!

 

94 Midnight’s Children by Salman Rushdie

The children of poor Hindus and wealthy Muslims are switched at birth.

 

93 Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Spy by John le Carré

Nursery rhyme provides the code names for British spies suspected of treason.

 

92 Cold Comfort Farm by Stella Gibbons

Hilarious satire on doom-laden rural romances. “Something nasty” has been observed in the woodshed.

 

91 The Tale of Genji by Lady Murasaki

The life and loves of an emperor's son. And the world's first novel?

 

90 Under the Net by Iris Murdoch

A feckless writer has dealings with a canine movie star. Comedy and philosophy combined.

 

89 The Golden Notebook by Doris Lessing

Lessing considers communism and women's liberation in what Margaret Drabble calls “inner space fiction”.

 

88 Eugene onegin by Alexander Pushkin

Passion, poetry and pistols in this verse novel of thwarted love.

 

87 On the Road by Jack Kerouac

Beat generation boys aim to “burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles”.

 

86 Old Goriot by Honoré de Balzac

A disillusioning dose of Bourbon Restoration realism. The anti-hero “Rastingnac” became a byword for ruthless social climbing.

 

85 The Red and the Black by Stendhal

Plebian hero struggles against the materialism and hypocrisy of French society with his “force d'ame”.

 

84 The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas

“One for all and all for one”: the eponymous swashbucklers battle the mysterious Milady.

 

83 Germinal by Emile Zola

Written to “germinate” social change, Germinal unflinchingly documents the starvation of French miners.

 

82 The Stranger by Albert Camus

Frenchman kills an Arab friend in Algiers and accepts “the gentle indifference of the world”.

 

81 The Name of the Rose by Umberto Eco

Illuminating historical whodunnit set in a 14th-century Italian monastry.

 

80 Oscar and Lucinda by Peter Carey

An Australian heiress bets an Anglican priest he can't move a glass church 400km.

 

79 Wide Sargasso Sea by Jean Rhys

Prequel to Jane Eyre giving moving, human voice to the mad woman in the attic.

 

78 Alice's Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll

Carroll’s ludic logic makes it possible to believe six impossible things before breakfast.

 

77 Catch-22 by Joseph Heller

Yossarian feels a homicidal impulse to machine gun total strangers. Isn’t that crazy?

 

76 The Trial by Franz Kafka

K proclaims he's innocent when unexpectedly arrested. But “innocent of what”?

 

75 Cider with Rosie by Laurie Lee

Protagonist's “first long secret drink of golden fire” is under a hay wagon.

 

74 Waiting for the Mahatma by RK Narayan

Gentle comedy in which a Gandhi-inspired Indian youth becomes an anti-British extremist.

 

73 All Quiet on the Western Front by Erich Remarque

The horror of the Great War as seen by a teenage soldier.

 

72 Dinner at the Homesick Restaurant by Anne Tyler

Three siblings are differently affected by their parents’unexplained separation.

 

71 The Dream of the Red Chamber by Cao Xueqin

Profound and panoramic insight into 18th-century Chinese society.

 

70 The Leopard by Giuseppe Tomasi di Lampedusa

Garibaldi’s Redshirts sweep through Sicily, the “jackals” ousting the nobility, or “leopards”.

 

69 If on a Winter's Night a Traveller by Italo Calvino

International book fraud is exposed in this playful postmodernist puzzle.

 

68 Crash by JG Ballard

Former TV scientist preaches “a new sexuality, born from a perverse technology”.

 

67 A Bend in the River by VS Naipaul

East African Indian Salim travels to the heart of Africa and finds “The world is what it is.”

 

66 Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky

Boy meets pawnbroker. Boy kills pawnbroker with an axe. Guilt, breakdown, Siberia, redemption.

 

65 Dr Zhivago by Boris Pasternak

Romantic young doctor's idealism is trampled by the atrocities of the Russian Revolution.

 

64 The Cairo Trilogy by Naguib Mahfouz

Follows three generations of Cairenes from the First World War to the coup of 1952.

 

63 The Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson

Stevenson’s “bogey tale” came to him in a dream.

 

62 Gulliver's Travels by Jonathan Swift

Swift’s scribulous satire on travellers'all tales (the Lilliputian Court is really George I’s).

 

61 My Name Is Red by Orhan Pamuk

A painter is murdered in Istanbul in 1591. Unusually, we hear from the corpse.

 

60 One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel García Márquez

Myth and reality melt magically together in this Colombian family saga.

 

59 London Fields by Martin Amis

A failed novelist steals a woman’s trashed diaries which reveal she’s plotting her own murder.

 

58 The Savage Detectives by Roberto Bolaño

Gang of South American poets travel the world, sleep around, challenge critics to duels.

 

57 The Glass Bead Game by Herman Hesse

Intellectuals withdraw from life to play a game of musical and mathematical rules.

 

56 The Tin Drum by Günter Grass

Madhouse memories of the Second World War. Key text of European magic realism.

 

55 Austerlitz by WG Sebald

Paragraph-less novel in which a Czech-born historian traces his own history back to the Holocaust.

 

54 Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov

Scholar's sexual obsession with a prepubescent “nymphet” is complicated by her mother's passion for him.

 

53 The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood

After nuclear war has rendered most sterile, fertile women are enslaved for breeding.

 

52 The Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger

Expelled from a “phony” prep school, adolescent anti-hero goes through a difficult phase.

 

51 Underworld by Don DeLillo

From baseball to nuclear waste, all late-20th-century American life is here.

 

50 Beloved by Toni Morrison

Brutal, haunting, jazz-inflected journey down the darkest narrative rivers of American slavery.

 

49 The Grapes of Wrath by John Steinbeck

“Okies” set out from the Depression dustbowl seeking decent wages and dignity.

 

48 Go Tell It on the Mountain by James Baldwin

Explores the role of the Christian Church in Harlem's African-American community.

 

47 The Unbearable Lightness of Being by Milan Kundera

A doctor's infidelities distress his wife. But if life means nothing, it can't matter.

 

46 The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie by Muriel Spark

A meddling teacher is betrayed by a favourite pupil who becomes a nun.

 

45 The Voyeur by Alain Robbe-Grillet

Did the watch salesman kill the girl on the beach. If so, who heard?

 

44 Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre

A historian becomes increasingly sickened by his existence, but decides to muddle on.

 

43 The Rabbit books by John Updike

A former high school basketball star is unsatisfied by marriage, fatherhood and sales jobs.

 

42 The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain

A boy and a runaway slave set sail on the Mississippi, away from Antebellum “sivilisation”.

 

41 The Hound of the Baskervilles by Arthur Conan Doyle

A drug addict chases a ghostly dog across the midnight moors.

 

40 The House of Mirth by Edith Wharton

Lily Bart craves luxury too much to marry for love. Scandal and sleeping pills ensue.

 

39 Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe

A Nigerian yam farmer's local leadership is shaken by accidental death and a missionary’s arrival.

 

38The Great Gatsby by F Scott Fitzgerald

A mysterious millionaire's love for a woman with “a voice full of money” gets him in trouble.

 

37 The Warden by Anthony Trollope

“Of all novelists in any country, Trollope best understands the role of money,” said W?H Auden.

 

36 Les Misérables by Victor Hugo

An ex-convict struggles to become a force for good, but it ends badly.

 

35 Lucky Jim by Kingsley Amis

An uncommitted history lecturer clashes with his pompous boss, gets drunk and gets the girl.

 

34 The Big Sleep by Raymond Chandler

“Dead men are heavier than broken hearts” in this hardboiled crime noir.

 

33 Clarissa by Samuel Richardson

Epistolary adventure whose heroine's bodice is savagely unlaced by the brothel-keeping Robert Lovelace.

 

32 A Dance to the Music of Time by Anthony Powell

Twelve-book saga whose most celebrated character wears “the wrong kind of overcoat”.

 

31 Suite Francaise by Irène Némirovsky

Published 60 years after their author was gassed, these two novellas portray city and village life in Nazi-occupied France.

 

30 Atonement by Ian McEwan

Puts the “c” word in the classic English country house novel.

 

29 Life: a User's Manual by Georges Perec

The jigsaw puzzle of lives in a Parisian apartment block. Plus empty rooms.

 

28 Tom Jones by Henry Fielding

Thigh-thwacking yarn of a foundling boy sewing his wild oats before marrying the girl next door.

 

27 Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

Human endeavours “to mock the stupendous mechanism of the Creator of the world” have tragic consequences.

 

26 Cranford by Elizabeth Gaskell

Northern villagers turn their bonnets against the social changes accompanying the industrial revolution.

 

25 The Moonstone by Wilkie Collins

Hailed by T S Eliot as “the first, the longest, and the best of modern English detective novels”.

 

24 Ulysses by James Joyce

Modernist masterpiece reworking of Homer with humour. Contains one of the longest “sentences” in English literature: 4,391 words.

 

23 Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert

Buying the lies of romance novels leads a provincial doctor's wife to an agonising end.

 

22 A Passage to India by EM Forster

A false accusation exposes the racist oppression of British rule in India.

 

21 1984 by George Orwell

In which Big Brother is even more sinister than the TV series it inspired.

 

20 Tristram Shandy by Laurence Sterne

Samuel Johnson thought Sterne's bawdy, experimental novel was too odd to last. Pah!

 

19 The War of the Worlds by HG Wells

Bloodsucking Martian invaders are wiped out by a dose of the sniffles.

 

18 Scoop by Evelyn Waugh

Waugh based the hapless junior reporter in this journalistic farce on former Telegraph editor Bill Deedes.

 

17 Tess of the D'Urbervilles by Thomas Hardy

Sexual double standards are held up to the cold, Wessex light in this rural tragedy.

 

16 Brighton Rock by Graham Greene

A seaside sociopath mucks up murder and marriage in Greene’s literary Punch and Judy show.

 

15 The Code of the Woosters by PG Wodehouse

A scrape-prone toff and pals are suavely manipulated by his gentleman’s personal gentleman.

 

14 Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë

Out on the winding, windy moors Cathy and Heathcliff become each other’s “souls”. Then he storms off.

 

13 David Copperfield by Charles Dickens

Debt and deception in Dickens's semi-autobiographical Bildungsroman crammed with cads, creeps and capital fellows.

 

12 Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe

A slave trader is shipwrecked but finds God, and a native to convert, on a desert island.

 

11 Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen

Every proud posh boy deserves a prejudiced girl. And a stately pile.

 

10 Don Quixote by Miguel de Cervantes

Picaresque tale about quinquagenarian gent on a skinny horse tilting at windmills.

 

9 Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf

Septimus's suicide doesn't spoil our heroine's stream-of-consciousness party.

 

8 Disgrace by JM Coetzee

An English professor in post-apartheid South Africa loses everything after seducing a student.

 

7 Jane Eyre by Charlotte Brontë

Poor and obscure and plain as she is, Mr Rochester wants to marry her. Illegally.

 

6 In Search of Lost Time by Marcel Proust

Seven-volume meditation on memory, featuring literature’s most celebrated lemony cake.

 

5 Heart of Darkness by Joseph Conrad

“The conquest of the earth,” said Conrad, “is not a pretty thing.”

 

4 The Portrait of a Lady by Henry James

An American heiress in Europe“affronts her destiny”by marrying an adulterous egoist.

 

3 Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

Tolstoy's doomed adulteress grew from a daydream of“a bare exquisite aristocratic elbow”.

 

2 Moby-Dick by Herman Melville

Monomaniacal Captain Ahab seeks vengeance on the white whale which ate his leg.

 

1 Middlemarch by George Eliot

“One of the few English novels written for grown-up people," said Virginia Woolf.

 

 

선곡한 브라암스의 클라리넷 소나타 2번   

 

 

랑랑 연주로 바하의 파르티타 1번

              

 

머리 페라이아의 연주로 파르티타 6번

               

 

 

이렇게 공개적으로 새해 다짐을 했으니,

그 결심이 조금이라도 더 오랫동안 지속되겠지요?